Was talking to Xinlei whether we're thankful for our classmates.
Her reaction was neutral, and that she feels closer to her club mates than our classmates.
I was quite surprised at her response, I guess I shouldn't be.
I don't know, or I can't explain why I'm so hesitant when I'm meeting some of the classmates.
I can't explain why I can co exist and co function with them for close to a year.
and yet feel like strangers, when our conversations are not as awkward,
but nevertheless awkward. I doubt I've created any huge lasting friendships in poly.
Why? I'd wonder. Because I've become too absorbed in my work?
Or because I simply don't want to make friends?

give me more loving then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feeling sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.

I think today's text message made me very happy.
I wonder why.

your peace you give. your peace i'll receive

Was talking to Xinlei whether we're thankful for our classmates.
Her reaction was neutral, and that she feels closer to her club mates than our classmates.
I was quite surprised at her response, I guess I shouldn't be.
I don't know, or I can't explain why I'm so hesitant when I'm meeting some of the classmates.
I can't explain why I can co exist and co function with them for close to a year.
and yet feel like strangers, when our conversations are not as awkward,
but nevertheless awkward. I doubt I've created any huge lasting friendships in poly.
Why? I'd wonder. Because I've become too absorbed in my work?
Or because I simply don't want to make friends?

give me more loving then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feeling sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.

I think today's text message made me very happy.
I wonder why.

your peace you give. your peace i'll receive