我不难过
这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流
我也不懂
就让我走
让我开始享受自由
回憶很多
你的影子也会充滿我生活
但我並不懦弱
你比谁都懂

BUT
my resolve is weak.
my heart aches.
i miss you already for a thousand and one things.

im glad though.
that we loved. and we lost.

松开你的手
离开你左右
我向前走
这会是我真正的解脱.

im actually using chinese to express my feelings of all things.
OMG.
im sick of my own emo shit.
Get me laughing gas. and the old eli. anytime.




taking love for granted.. isn’t supposed to be the way to go.

My husband is an engineer. Since I met him, he was always an unflappable rock in my life.
I knew he always had his feet firmly planted on the ground, and it seemed that no matter what else went crazy, he would be the one constant.

Three years of romance, and two years of marriage later, I got tired. He was the most unromantic man I know. He never bought me flowers, he never surprised me, and nothing changed in our marriage. After some time, I finally found the courage to tell him that I wanted to leave him. He just sat there, speechless.

My heart froze … what kind of man was I married to that didn’t even know what to say to make me stay? After a while, he spoke, “What can I do to change your mind?” “I will stay if you can give me a good answer to this question,” I replied coldly. “If I asked for a flower that grew on a cliff, and you knew that getting it for me means certain death, would you get it for me?”

His face grew troubled. “Can I give you an answer tomorrow morning?” he asked. Hearing that kind of answer, my heart died. I knew that I could never be happy with a man who couldn’t even give me a answer straight away.

The next morning, when I woke up, he was missing. In the living room, under a warm glass of milk, was a note. My eyes grew misty as I read it . “Dear, I have my answer. I will never pick the flower for you if it meant certain death. But before you leave, I hope you can give me a chance to give you my reasons.”

“You will always sit in front of the computer and type about for the whole day, but every time you will end up in tears cause your formatting will always go all over the place… I need my fingers, to do the formatting for you, so your tears will become smiles.”

“You like to travel, but would always get lost … I need my eyes, so that I can bring you to the nicest places on earth.”

“Every time you leave the house, you would always forget your keys … I need my legs, so that I can run home to open the door for you.”

“You never knew how to take care of yourself… I need my hands to help you get rid of the pesky white hair you hate so much when you grow old, to trim your nails, to feed you.”

“So you see, that’s why I can’t pick the flower for you. Until I find someone who loves you more than I do, I will need my body to take care of you.”

“If you accept my reasons, then open the door, where I will be waiting with your favorite muffin.”

With tears streaming from my eyes, I opened the door, and there he stood, with a extremely worried look on his face. He still had nothing to say, but just stood there waving the packet he had in his hand in front of me.

And then I knew for a fact that I will never find another man who will ever love me as much as he does.

Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean that they don’t love you with all they have.

i still hear your voice but you're not really here
tell me im yours.

IT fair on Saturday.
I got my camera. L201!





But there's no white. no white!
I want pure white. but there's some white at the sides! (self-consolation.heh!)
I sound so obssessed with white! Haha.



And IT fair was super squishy. I had to try hard to breathe.
No oxygen! But I realised how peanuts I was about IT.
That day was the first day I saw a gaming mouse.
I never knew such thingamees existed!
Look like some ugly alien. HEH.

Yesterday was A litter adventure @ ECP.
It was extremely exhausting.











My group of kids were like some bunch of monkeys.
Conversation throughout the race went like this:


Naomi: " Can we ride bike? "
Irene: " YEA! Can we ride bike? "
Matt: " I WANNA RIDE BIKE TOO!!!"
Nicholas: " Can we go big splash? My uncle works there. We get discounts! "
Me: "Yes. Only when we're done! Let's keep going"


Play it x10


Matt, Nicholas and Irene frowning over the spot the difference.
Me: Naomi, why don't you help? *tickles her*
Naomi: No. I don't want. So easy, they sure know the answer.
Matt: Naomi...Help us! We're a team!
Naomi: Don't want. I know the answers, but I'm not going to tell you!
Irene: NAOMI....I wanna ride bike....
Matt: AIYA! Naomi don't know only la.
Naomi: I know! I just don't want to tell you!


Play it x 5


Matt: Im thirsty! Can we get drinks?
Naomi: I want 100 plus!!!
Irene: I want coke or sprite. Naomi, why you want 100 plus?
Matt and Nicholas: YEA WE GET SPRITE.
Naomi: Then I don't want lor.
Irene: I want COKE!


Play it x5


Matt throws sand at Irene.
Irene yells: MATT THROW SAND AT ME!
Irene: My skirt's all wet!
Irene folds up skirt, revealing underwear.
Irene throws sand at Matt.
Sand flinging fight ensues and is promptly stopped.


Play it x1.


Haha. It was enjoyable though and they had fun.
But it was draining awfully draining.
I was super shagged. I didn't sleep through the night!
I think I ran on energiser bunnies on that two days!


G12 was awesome. Much better than last last's year.
I'm actually quite thankful for G12. I only snoozed once. and not for long.
Very encouraging. and the word very apt.
Thank God.


Delirious was very rock.
But kinda GROOVY & AWESOME after you adapt.
I really like History Maker; that song though.
Spoke volumes. Personally felt it was a very powerful song too.


Yes it's true.
I believe it.
I'm living for you.

I'm gonna be a history maker in this land.
I'm gonna be a speaker of truth to all mankind.
I'm gonna stand. I'm gonna run into your arms.






Today's sky was an awfully pretty purple.
SUPER GORGEOUS! (! and it wasn't edited)
one good thing about being awake at 6 plus. So pretty right!
Another thing to thank god for. (:

cloudless skies will break

I think I'm getting a little too obsessed with BOF.
I swear it's getting unhealthy.
But KIM BUM is so cute. he's making me MELT (that is if I were a snowman. uhh snowwoman)
and I'm actually starting to want Jihoo and Jandi to get together!
I know. I have a love hate relationship with characters.
& I can't wait for the episodes where Gaeul and Yijung get together.
I want to swoon and see how he confesses!!!
Okay enough.


I think holidays are super unhealthy for me.
I realise I eat less than I usually do during holidays.
Like no routine = eat less. sleep a lot. work a lot.
Speaking of work. Should I take over the P5 class?
I'm not sure if I have time for drama if I do.
I want to get into drama. I really really want. Really Really Really want.
I actually feel like there's a rush in my blood and adrenaline when I act (in the past and now)
Okay sound like some psychopath.

I think my family's been having weird fruits lately.
See! This banana is like the smallest banana I've ever seen.




And my dad bought small apples too!
Probably 1 and a 1/2 size of a ping pong ball.
SMALL RIGHT? So cool!

And mummy agreed to sponsor me my camera! Haha. OLE!
and my expenses for Hong Kong trip. Or was it a loan?
But I think daddy will pay for the camera in the end. Though I actually feel bad.
But you know! It actually costs 200 ish to repair my Samsung Camera!
79.40 for consultation fee. and 100 plus for the barrel.
I feel so cheated and exploited. So I'm getting a new one!

I can't decide though.



I8?





or


L201?


HSBC's over. and all the events helping out thingamee.
I feel very sorry and regretful for not being able to do the last day.
Stupid cramps. I absolutely loathe periods.
I hope my MC is a legible explanation that Rajes will take cos it really was awful.
I think my pass is super cool. and the thingamees that we got on the bright side.




BOO! SCARY RIGHT? So disgusting! like some herbivore dinosaur!
Although dinosaurs don't use spoons!

Okay. G12 tomorrow.
Toodles.

i need to know i matter, that i'm not just a colleague.
won't you won't you open your heart?

我不难过
这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流
我也不懂
就让我走
让我开始享受自由
回憶很多
你的影子也会充滿我生活
但我並不懦弱
你比谁都懂

BUT
my resolve is weak.
my heart aches.
i miss you already for a thousand and one things.

im glad though.
that we loved. and we lost.

松开你的手
离开你左右
我向前走
这会是我真正的解脱.

im actually using chinese to express my feelings of all things.
OMG.
im sick of my own emo shit.
Get me laughing gas. and the old eli. anytime.




taking love for granted.. isn’t supposed to be the way to go.

My husband is an engineer. Since I met him, he was always an unflappable rock in my life.
I knew he always had his feet firmly planted on the ground, and it seemed that no matter what else went crazy, he would be the one constant.

Three years of romance, and two years of marriage later, I got tired. He was the most unromantic man I know. He never bought me flowers, he never surprised me, and nothing changed in our marriage. After some time, I finally found the courage to tell him that I wanted to leave him. He just sat there, speechless.

My heart froze … what kind of man was I married to that didn’t even know what to say to make me stay? After a while, he spoke, “What can I do to change your mind?” “I will stay if you can give me a good answer to this question,” I replied coldly. “If I asked for a flower that grew on a cliff, and you knew that getting it for me means certain death, would you get it for me?”

His face grew troubled. “Can I give you an answer tomorrow morning?” he asked. Hearing that kind of answer, my heart died. I knew that I could never be happy with a man who couldn’t even give me a answer straight away.

The next morning, when I woke up, he was missing. In the living room, under a warm glass of milk, was a note. My eyes grew misty as I read it . “Dear, I have my answer. I will never pick the flower for you if it meant certain death. But before you leave, I hope you can give me a chance to give you my reasons.”

“You will always sit in front of the computer and type about for the whole day, but every time you will end up in tears cause your formatting will always go all over the place… I need my fingers, to do the formatting for you, so your tears will become smiles.”

“You like to travel, but would always get lost … I need my eyes, so that I can bring you to the nicest places on earth.”

“Every time you leave the house, you would always forget your keys … I need my legs, so that I can run home to open the door for you.”

“You never knew how to take care of yourself… I need my hands to help you get rid of the pesky white hair you hate so much when you grow old, to trim your nails, to feed you.”

“So you see, that’s why I can’t pick the flower for you. Until I find someone who loves you more than I do, I will need my body to take care of you.”

“If you accept my reasons, then open the door, where I will be waiting with your favorite muffin.”

With tears streaming from my eyes, I opened the door, and there he stood, with a extremely worried look on his face. He still had nothing to say, but just stood there waving the packet he had in his hand in front of me.

And then I knew for a fact that I will never find another man who will ever love me as much as he does.

Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean that they don’t love you with all they have.

i still hear your voice but you're not really here
tell me im yours.

IT fair on Saturday.
I got my camera. L201!





But there's no white. no white!
I want pure white. but there's some white at the sides! (self-consolation.heh!)
I sound so obssessed with white! Haha.



And IT fair was super squishy. I had to try hard to breathe.
No oxygen! But I realised how peanuts I was about IT.
That day was the first day I saw a gaming mouse.
I never knew such thingamees existed!
Look like some ugly alien. HEH.

Yesterday was A litter adventure @ ECP.
It was extremely exhausting.











My group of kids were like some bunch of monkeys.
Conversation throughout the race went like this:


Naomi: " Can we ride bike? "
Irene: " YEA! Can we ride bike? "
Matt: " I WANNA RIDE BIKE TOO!!!"
Nicholas: " Can we go big splash? My uncle works there. We get discounts! "
Me: "Yes. Only when we're done! Let's keep going"


Play it x10


Matt, Nicholas and Irene frowning over the spot the difference.
Me: Naomi, why don't you help? *tickles her*
Naomi: No. I don't want. So easy, they sure know the answer.
Matt: Naomi...Help us! We're a team!
Naomi: Don't want. I know the answers, but I'm not going to tell you!
Irene: NAOMI....I wanna ride bike....
Matt: AIYA! Naomi don't know only la.
Naomi: I know! I just don't want to tell you!


Play it x 5


Matt: Im thirsty! Can we get drinks?
Naomi: I want 100 plus!!!
Irene: I want coke or sprite. Naomi, why you want 100 plus?
Matt and Nicholas: YEA WE GET SPRITE.
Naomi: Then I don't want lor.
Irene: I want COKE!


Play it x5


Matt throws sand at Irene.
Irene yells: MATT THROW SAND AT ME!
Irene: My skirt's all wet!
Irene folds up skirt, revealing underwear.
Irene throws sand at Matt.
Sand flinging fight ensues and is promptly stopped.


Play it x1.


Haha. It was enjoyable though and they had fun.
But it was draining awfully draining.
I was super shagged. I didn't sleep through the night!
I think I ran on energiser bunnies on that two days!


G12 was awesome. Much better than last last's year.
I'm actually quite thankful for G12. I only snoozed once. and not for long.
Very encouraging. and the word very apt.
Thank God.


Delirious was very rock.
But kinda GROOVY & AWESOME after you adapt.
I really like History Maker; that song though.
Spoke volumes. Personally felt it was a very powerful song too.


Yes it's true.
I believe it.
I'm living for you.

I'm gonna be a history maker in this land.
I'm gonna be a speaker of truth to all mankind.
I'm gonna stand. I'm gonna run into your arms.






Today's sky was an awfully pretty purple.
SUPER GORGEOUS! (! and it wasn't edited)
one good thing about being awake at 6 plus. So pretty right!
Another thing to thank god for. (:

cloudless skies will break

I think I'm getting a little too obsessed with BOF.
I swear it's getting unhealthy.
But KIM BUM is so cute. he's making me MELT (that is if I were a snowman. uhh snowwoman)
and I'm actually starting to want Jihoo and Jandi to get together!
I know. I have a love hate relationship with characters.
& I can't wait for the episodes where Gaeul and Yijung get together.
I want to swoon and see how he confesses!!!
Okay enough.


I think holidays are super unhealthy for me.
I realise I eat less than I usually do during holidays.
Like no routine = eat less. sleep a lot. work a lot.
Speaking of work. Should I take over the P5 class?
I'm not sure if I have time for drama if I do.
I want to get into drama. I really really want. Really Really Really want.
I actually feel like there's a rush in my blood and adrenaline when I act (in the past and now)
Okay sound like some psychopath.

I think my family's been having weird fruits lately.
See! This banana is like the smallest banana I've ever seen.




And my dad bought small apples too!
Probably 1 and a 1/2 size of a ping pong ball.
SMALL RIGHT? So cool!

And mummy agreed to sponsor me my camera! Haha. OLE!
and my expenses for Hong Kong trip. Or was it a loan?
But I think daddy will pay for the camera in the end. Though I actually feel bad.
But you know! It actually costs 200 ish to repair my Samsung Camera!
79.40 for consultation fee. and 100 plus for the barrel.
I feel so cheated and exploited. So I'm getting a new one!

I can't decide though.



I8?





or


L201?


HSBC's over. and all the events helping out thingamee.
I feel very sorry and regretful for not being able to do the last day.
Stupid cramps. I absolutely loathe periods.
I hope my MC is a legible explanation that Rajes will take cos it really was awful.
I think my pass is super cool. and the thingamees that we got on the bright side.




BOO! SCARY RIGHT? So disgusting! like some herbivore dinosaur!
Although dinosaurs don't use spoons!

Okay. G12 tomorrow.
Toodles.

i need to know i matter, that i'm not just a colleague.
won't you won't you open your heart?