side track: I realised how much i miss trips out with mummy )): awww.

anyway im glad i met balls for service today. WHOO! did some catching up.
& balls sent a subtle reminder, by mentioning about some incident about.....
hmmm what was that again?
oh yes! making new friends and not forgetting the old.
haha! today's service was awesome-est, it really did speak to me.
& tomorrow's a new day. 14 days till school reopens.
BAHHH DDD:

and ice skating on saturday was pure fun ((:
despite falling, thankfully only once, but i realised i have lots of blue-blacks,
ok they are currently colouring reddish yellow.
but it was still uber fun. aik hong's scary to skate with. he was fast!
and he kept saying 'c'mon elizabeth! hold on to me i'll bring u on a fast skate round the rink '
to which i exclaimed, shouted, whichever, 'DON'T TOUCH ME!'
& my hands automatically wrapped around myself. haha.
qingwei was as usual good, he takes to skating like a duck takes to water.
& joyce learnt to skate too! which was just great (;
headed back to the centre, didn't make it in time to find jonathan,
see la! aikhong walk so slow. heee
then strolled out for dinner, which was pretty good. thank you :D
and strolled back to yiochukang mrt, which was a pretty good way to end the day (:
and home-ed. & i still had to reply to messages and people asking how did dinner go. glares!
haha. anyway back to today.

taught aikhong english again, of which i've to force him to do homework.
ITS TIRING YOU KNOW!
before that had lunch at kfc.
whilst queuing up and aikhong was relaxing, there was this super girlish guy behind me,
his two conversations on the phone was girly, so girly, it gave me goosepimples, goosebumps!
i seriously questioned his gender.
he was *jaws drop open* gahh DDD:
then we headed back to do work again, as usual, had to be forced ;D
and helped zhipeng with his eng project later.
at the library while using lappie,
i turned off umm another stranger's switch ACCIDENTALLY.
it was so embarassing ;p heh.
off to aunt's home next,
it was lovely seeing dexter again, i miss my cousins uber uber uber much (:
dinner and taught michelle. wooosh.
& im getting more and more absent minded, i left my hp in the centre in the afternoon
& left my wallet at aunt's house in the evening. twice in one day.
one day i'd might lose myself, i'd never know! ;D

i think i get grumpy, when........... i don't know.
i just feel extremely tired and annoyed.
short fuse; i think if someone rubs me the wrong way im going to snap.
so i'd best save the world of my horrible temper when i get angry.
& go and catch some beauty sleep!
tomorrow is a busy busy day.
morning service with balls. YAY ;DDD hahahah.
then eng lessons with sister aikhong.
& project with zhipeng.
then lessons with michelle, and family dinner. ACK!
& i've gotten ideas for the thank you thingamee already!
FINALLY (: haha i can start doing it soon. YAY ;D
and now my brain's only processing one thing.
go to sleep. go to sleep. go to sleep.

YAY ;DD
im sun baked and red hot. & so are joyce shermaine and qingwei!
shermaine especially.
i feel so hot and fuzzy all over. It isn't a very comfortable feeling & I bathed in hot water to make it worse. Heee ;D so much for acting smart.
mummy's oat body cream isn't helping. I need aloe vera! ;D
today's trip to east coast park was FUN FUN FUN. whooo.
We were ALMOST lost, thankfully, there were extremely helpful marine parade residents that directed us to the underpass and there was even an uber nice lady who popped her head out just to check that we were going the right way. awww (:
My attempt to learn to cycle part 2 was pretty screwed up again. heh. but Im getting there.
& there was a fighter jet in the sky today. Awww. We were trying to guess whether its an aeroplane, a rocket, or a fighter jet, apparently the last won!
& we went to sit at the jetty just soaking in the sun and the view.
the water sparkled (rather the one further out in the sea)
& the sand was oh so smooth and white.
haha it was a great time to STONE & day dream.
then washed up, headed back to marine parade (as quoted central; city area by shermaine)
kfc-ed and we didn't have a peaceful meal, we broke into peals of laughter throughout the meal, except for shermaine who turned on her silent mode ;D there was a bunch of jc students sitting behind us, and one of the girls, kept going,
' i was like blahhh blaahhh blahh '
& ' she was like blahh blahhh blahhh '
& then ' he was like blahhh blahh blahhh '
and 'how could she be like this blahhh blahhh blahh'
and ' i was like is it like my fault, do i look like.....blahh blahh blahh'
& on and on she went, and we laughed at every single like she says,
qingwei claims her vocabulary is apparently extremely limited.
our fingers and toes added up wouldn't have been enough to count the no.s of 'like' she said.
Hence we started imitating her with the ang moh qiang and all non-stop around the shopping mall and all. Window-shopped (Of course lah) and looked for joyce's ipanema. Oh! I love mine ;D
then we bus-ed back (: the ride was tiring. Fell asleep, thank goodness. and im still feeling hot all over.I'd hope tomorrow's ice skating had cool my skin :DD
pure fun, just days and days of playing WOOO! (: at least till school starts urgh.
& i wanna go FO camp the SU one its so annoying they didn't call back hmph
and oh theres cell retreat. ahahaahhaha! i can't wait! (:
& i seriously need to peel my eyes open. got work to do. gahhh!

even if it takes you forever

How do I love thee?
Let me count the ways.

I've been doing a lot of thinking recently.
Ok it doesn't mean I don't think everyday.
But anyway I've been thinking that there are a zillion of charity cases (exaggerating)
but really lots of charity cases, so what makes one unfortunate man different from the other,
what would make you donate to one and not the other.
what makes you think that the tissue aunty over at the traffic light needs more help than the one at the mrt. for example.
I think its really confusing. & I haven't seen tissue uncle for a long time, whichever his name, but my favourite tissue uncle friend, and my kong kong's one too. ok he used to sell the singapore sweep tickets. sigh. I wonder how he's doing.
& oh yes back to the topic.seee im diverting AGAIN.
& for example today, there was a blind lady basking, a old man without one arm selling tissues, I walked away an extremely confused person. Which to donate I think. Both? Or one a day.
How about the old ladies at Orchard Road where they set their mats and sell lil stuff ranging from tissues to umbrellas to a pack of milo or even bossini teeshirts. Seriously, are those considered charity cases. I don't know.
& now about charity now that I remember, my year plan to go help out at an old folks home. MUST NOT GET DISTRACTED. urgh!
I must go and get it done by God's grace.

& now about another topic about weight?
Is it so oppressive the word fat?
Why is there a stigma about the word fat?
As I was going up the escalator the group of secondary girls on the way down said,
' I like that thick hairband but I saw a fat girl wearing it'
Whats the link over here?
It disgusts me when people ostracise people who are not as slim as them, or not of the perfect figure. & to people who are already stick thin, they say that I need to lose weight, I need to eat less, its really crazy!

I'm too tired to think much more.
& I think I've been pretty grumpy of late which is bad.
Perhaps its moodswings?
I don't know. GAHH.

i miss you.

& its such a grey area.
not clearly stated in black and white.
but its there.
and i know it as much as you do.

TGIF!
In god there is no uncertainty, he is certain, he is real.
In god there is no need to worry that what is lost would be lost forever.
I would never lose him.
& since young. i've been afraid of losing things that are dear to me.
i mean who isn't, but im EXTRA paranoid of it.
but now, I'll never need to fear.
& to meet up with god this sanctification week again was great.
the passion of the christ video.
the reminder again that god did this for me.
thank god for speaking.
& change me father, i'll be ignorant no longer.

HAHA YAY ;DDDD
shopping with renette was LOVE (:
daughter! i love you. hahhahaha!
we went to taka to get her 3 quarts. auntie nancy and caixia! thank you ;DDD
i miss you guys sooooo much (: auntie nancy you're still as sweet as ever.
hahaha and i've got 40% discount :PPP i sound seriously aunty- OMIGOSH.
i'll come by and visit you when i can. hahaha! (:
anyway a very satisfied renette went off happily with her 3/4s.
and then we ice-creamed! its been ages!
CHOCO MINT is pre-loved, and still loved.
and i really ate A LOT. despite my cough, and throaty voice and whatever not. heh.
had gogo franks cheesy sausage prata, and sausage fries! :D
then we strolled to isetan, to look for clothes, didn't find anything, but spoke to auntie annie ;D she looks really adorable in her huge black jacket.but most of the aunties are gone ): then we had the random urge to watch step up 2, but then we decided to go bugis to watch. bought buns and fruits, then had you tiao and butterfly ;D and otah! that was really A LOT of food.

heh. and off to bugis, the movie timing was 5:10 bleargh, and renette probably couldn't make it for her hangul lessons if we watched it then. so we went up to the foodcourt and ate our food.
we were sitting by this lovely window, with a beautiful scenery, if you count buildings as scenery that is, but there was some sky still, so i had the clearer view and i wanted to let renette see some sky ;D and then i moved my chair, renette gave a questioning look, i moved the table next in a sudden swift motion, renette whose elbows were on the table, jerked off. her expression was hilarious! she nagged at me for not giving her a warning. haha! awww.

after the short break we continued shopping, and when we were thinking of heading back so that she could make it for her hangul lessons, the centre confirmed that it was on wednesday. GAHH we could have atched step up 2. but then again, there's always wed.
so we strolled around to look for smaller handbags. ;D renette wanted it and it was really hilarious, i don't know it just looks funny on her. heh!

since she had no more hangul lessons, we decided to go shoe-shopping. IM HAPPY ;DD new shoes! that means i can throw away one of my old pair. too tight. hehe! now i want sneakers.but for now my kappa shoes will have to do.

went back to the centre later, sorry aikhong! i came too late, heh. ;p then it was bliss (: just spending time talking, haha! and thank you. that was very sweet. home-ed. and i've got lessons later. till then.

sweet jesus.
i close my eyes lift my hands to worship you.
you're the love of my life.
no one else matters in this world but you.
no one can take your place in my heart.

father i miss you.

and its like daily, we're on a sugar high (:

Went to SP for enrolment today, was kinda awe-ed.
Just poof-ed back. So many clubs, how to know which to join. like ACK!
but I think I'd wanna attend the student union club camp.
still the timing's kinda wrong. have lessons on tues, and the camp falls from mon-wed
BAD ):
Anyway, I got my lappie. YAY ;DDD
haha and the freshman orientation tee, is kinda prettaye ;DDD

heh! then headed to Singapore's Christian Home for the Aged with the kids and the other tutors & helpers & boss! It was really sad to see the old folks, limited or rather confined to their beds, their so called, own cubicle, and theres not much to roam about with, no tv clearly visible.
There're elderly whose faces brightened up and they smiled like nobody's business when we sung, performed and spoke to them.

& There was this old lady, Aunt Elsie, who really touched me.
She couldn't see, her hearing wasn't good. Yet her passion for God was really there.
She sung hymns which I don't know of but still, I could feel her love for God.
If someone, without sight, who can't hear well, could trust God with all her heart, soul, and spirit, why can't I? It just hit me really hard.
Then a student's reflection, that underneath everything no matter how harsh or withdrawn they may be, there's a part of them yearning for love. Indeed every single one of us human being's like that, perhaps thats a good explanation when the kids behave like that or friends or other strangers or loved ones, when they get irritating, or make you angry, perhaps they just want your attention. A lil' I care for you. a lil' I'm here for you would go a mile.

& its really an eye-opener, going to the old folks home with kids, seriously, previously when going with classmates, it'd be, difference between enthu and unenthu people, people who do it just for the sake of doing it, not out of pure compassion, out of love, out of care and concern.

Well the kids really made me proud of them, they'd do stuff they don't normally do. Dance with zest, when this kind of thing would make them embarassed usually, or sing lustily, despite the fact some think they can't sing, despite the fact some zhao sia, they still sang. those who were rough and clumsy people, making an effort to fold hearts, putting their heart and soul into writing their comments, its really great to see them going all out. I realised giving isn't just giving within your means as often stated, but giving more than you can.

MAC-RITCHIE jungle walk tomorrow! I'm off heh! TOODLES (:

& the lil actions speak more than words itself.

Im losing my voice. ack!!!
and its manly. urp! im tired. & im going to sleep early for once ;D
haha. and thank you (: for coming down to pass me medication.
and i asked for a roll of robitussin sweet alone, and you gave the whole package, medicine needed, more than necessary and not needed.
as your dad said 'did someone at the centre faint?'
Thanks :) for asking your dad to drive down to considering you once said that its rare.
and for running to 7 eleven. haha! and for taking over tomorrow's lessons!
I want my voice back, its like so ack.
I realised how much our voice is a blessing from God.
& thanks Minghao for the disgusting tasting luohanguo and the waterchestnut.
heh! & the rest at the centre for telling me to takecare.
WHOA i can't wait to recover.
and lets go ICE CREAM tomorrow, in hope that it would soothe my throat! (:

& gratitude, these lil thoughtful things (:

sleeping is tiresome today.
breathing is troublesome.
i don't like chronic coughs. ACK!

and when you call , my heart stops beating.

Ice skating was screwed up ):
the ice skating rink was closed up cos there was an ice hockey tournament!
absolutely annoying!
we went there and we were like huh! how come theres no one are they zambo-ing the rink or were we early. and we saw the sign that says PLEASE BEWARE OF FLYING HOCKEY PUCKS!and then the hockey goalposts or nets? whichever you call that.
then finally the sign, that says PLEASE NOTE THAT WE'LL BE CLOSED FROM 6/3/2008-8/3/2008 due to the hockey tournament. LIKE BAHHH! We pouted frowned to no avail. We couldn't have used it for nuts la!
Watched a lil bit of ice hockey while munching before going for movie.
The eye was freaky! yet it was really meaningful as in the moral of the story.
& i realised there're so many people scared of spooky shows. Me included!
Girl with blonde curly hair and black mascara-ed plus eye-shadowed lady to the fullest extent was just freaky! & music plays such a part.
poor nigel got whacked hard by renette.
xueyi borrowed shermaine's shoulder.
jinwen im not too sure.
aik hong snatched my shawl away to cover his eyes.
and qingwei thought it was amusing! haha.
Then walked talked watched more ice hockey matches,
which was kinda bad cos singapore lost 3-1. awww!
but its really interesting and violent! haha
then headed back to the centre.
did some album. read with some kids.
and reminder to self: Go get a dictionary for derek.
then went to write motivational cards for huixian.
and pizza hutted with ftc people. which explanation doesn't suffice for my current hoarse voice.
ack! fever the next day at 38. can't stand it!
and imagine a few days ago, I was telling my mummy, 'Mummy its really funny how everytime I think to myself, I haven't had a sore throat for a long time, or I haven't fell sick for a long time and then I'll fall sick.'
Now I've fallen sick again! ): haha and I hid the news from my daddy and grandma.
Took panadol silently, suffer silently etc.
Today's my voice's still hoarse, and i go off-key and my throat itchy,
but thank God for the little things in life, I'm healed of the fever.
& for the honey lemon drink from sheree's mum,
& for Mummy agreeing to hide the secret.
& for the messages which cheered me up! (:

today was shopping with lovely renette (:
IT fair was WHOA! haha got the memory stick. thanks daddy for paying! ;P
& VAIO and apple labtops are love!
they're just so gorgeous at least lookwise. droolworthy.
renette's and my drool could have filled up a bucket! haha exaggeration ;D
whichever.
went shopping (: or rather renette did the shopping.
heh! too much clothes. & fashion lab has a sale going on!
like major. rene wanted a 3/4. staff purchase. heh! thanks caixia (:
plus additional 15% off.
met doris though she didn't recognise me.
the manager that told me to smile at clothes when shopping! ack.
and window-ed the rest.
got donut factory! YUM though its real messy.
I managed to resist the temptation to eat it till i broke fast. haha YAY.
went to HURS then. and strolled around bugis street.
shorts and jeans. oh no! im feeling tempted. haha
& renette was so evil. she said. 'elizabeth see la! I don't like you already, you tempt me to buy clothes. hurh hurh!'
;D amusing! then yoshinoya-ed for dinner.
before rushing for cell at sengkang.
chatted along the way. i think its been ages since renette and i had the time to hang out with each other.
THANK GOD (:
ice breakers was really hilarious.
haha renette said ' I FEEL SO STRESSED '
;DDD its really funny lah! haha.
then worship
and NDP motivator.
whoo ((; mummy said its ok if i join! haha renette im dragging you along with me heh.
and then learnt about deliverance.
it was interesting yet spooky.
home-ed with renette & rachel.
lovely time talking. haha! (;
YAY! and tomorrow's ice skating day! i can't wait!

& in circles we've gone.

HOO! minjun couldn't make it today and i was pretty touched heh not that he couldn't go!
but that his mum called to say that he wanted to struggle and make it to class (:
he's so sweet. awww! haha. its ok i'll see you sunday!
the little things that are extra sunshines!
:D
jack place-ed with qingwei and jinwen.
& HURRAY! i've finally finished packing all the books. HA!
i'd feel a major sense of accomplishment.left the borrow me sign to do though.
oh yes and photo album captions. soon soon (:
;DDD i need to learn my tenses all over. its getting bad!
& its amazing how easy primary school eng seemed! no lengthy essays and comprehension. whoa! aik hong homework seems pretty ok.
then home-ed (: thanks for a/c to mrt! ;D
cell tomorrow! yay! & IT fair with rene.
im soooo not looking forward to medical checkup
super gross la. what chest x-ray.
i feel violated ok! and urine test! ack! ack! ack!
SP AHHH!

& yesterday was........ but i'll still give thanks!
class was horigible.
im not sure if its the after examination mode or something
but still they refused to pay attention. maybe cos i gave them a test.
or maybe i wasn't sufficiently prepared. and the game went awry.
but what really hurt was sheree writing down on a piece of paper whilst crying.
' this is the most boring lesson ever. you're the worst tuitor.'
NOTE: with spelling error attached.
which reminds me i need to correct her spelling.
heart breaks twice & thrice.
its the worse thing anyone can say.
i know she likes to win, to have all the attention in the world especially from tutors.
she's probably the only child. but whatever its not like im not!
she's self centred like what christon says. but people have their faults lah.
but what really drives me crazy was the fact that after class and 2 games.....
she.... said..... BYE elizabeth JIE JIE! SEE YOU! & gave me a HI-5 & a HI - 0.
Its confusing. and before lesson she was. LAUGHING AWAY HAPPILY & PLAYING WITH ME.
and to add in inappropriate behaviour. she eats sweets like nobody's business! in my class without asking me. yes for whose ever brilliant idea it was, i'd get monster sweets and scare her with gooey coloured teeth! its really a great idea now! and she eats like nobody's business. in my class. and she's anti social, she doesn't like people in her class. must have pre talk with her next week. to think i thought her mature.
ARRGHHH! frustration. but i'll learn to rest in the Lord.
not mine but yours.
& yi heng is so cute LIKE XOXO SUPER LOVED. sheesh! i mean seriously. he's so sweet. he's smart, polite, cute, funny, and understanding. little monster sheree wanted to be the listener in queen victoria and yiheng wanted to be too, and sheree was close to starting a fight and then yiheng said, its ok, you be lah! MAN! I LOVE HIM ((: highest scorer 47.5/50
that doesn't mean i don't love you all minjun and jessica & sheree too!
I'LL LOVE YOU ALL ((: despite your faults! i've mine too.

& today was really a great day.
on a side note: i splurged on myself yesterday.
haha im happy! & i got my pay! (:
and the rest that happened im too lazy to blog bout it.
TILL THEN!
im looking forward to tomorrow ;DD

side track: I realised how much i miss trips out with mummy )): awww.

anyway im glad i met balls for service today. WHOO! did some catching up.
& balls sent a subtle reminder, by mentioning about some incident about.....
hmmm what was that again?
oh yes! making new friends and not forgetting the old.
haha! today's service was awesome-est, it really did speak to me.
& tomorrow's a new day. 14 days till school reopens.
BAHHH DDD:

and ice skating on saturday was pure fun ((:
despite falling, thankfully only once, but i realised i have lots of blue-blacks,
ok they are currently colouring reddish yellow.
but it was still uber fun. aik hong's scary to skate with. he was fast!
and he kept saying 'c'mon elizabeth! hold on to me i'll bring u on a fast skate round the rink '
to which i exclaimed, shouted, whichever, 'DON'T TOUCH ME!'
& my hands automatically wrapped around myself. haha.
qingwei was as usual good, he takes to skating like a duck takes to water.
& joyce learnt to skate too! which was just great (;
headed back to the centre, didn't make it in time to find jonathan,
see la! aikhong walk so slow. heee
then strolled out for dinner, which was pretty good. thank you :D
and strolled back to yiochukang mrt, which was a pretty good way to end the day (:
and home-ed. & i still had to reply to messages and people asking how did dinner go. glares!
haha. anyway back to today.

taught aikhong english again, of which i've to force him to do homework.
ITS TIRING YOU KNOW!
before that had lunch at kfc.
whilst queuing up and aikhong was relaxing, there was this super girlish guy behind me,
his two conversations on the phone was girly, so girly, it gave me goosepimples, goosebumps!
i seriously questioned his gender.
he was *jaws drop open* gahh DDD:
then we headed back to do work again, as usual, had to be forced ;D
and helped zhipeng with his eng project later.
at the library while using lappie,
i turned off umm another stranger's switch ACCIDENTALLY.
it was so embarassing ;p heh.
off to aunt's home next,
it was lovely seeing dexter again, i miss my cousins uber uber uber much (:
dinner and taught michelle. wooosh.
& im getting more and more absent minded, i left my hp in the centre in the afternoon
& left my wallet at aunt's house in the evening. twice in one day.
one day i'd might lose myself, i'd never know! ;D

i think i get grumpy, when........... i don't know.
i just feel extremely tired and annoyed.
short fuse; i think if someone rubs me the wrong way im going to snap.
so i'd best save the world of my horrible temper when i get angry.
& go and catch some beauty sleep!
tomorrow is a busy busy day.
morning service with balls. YAY ;DDD hahahah.
then eng lessons with sister aikhong.
& project with zhipeng.
then lessons with michelle, and family dinner. ACK!
& i've gotten ideas for the thank you thingamee already!
FINALLY (: haha i can start doing it soon. YAY ;D
and now my brain's only processing one thing.
go to sleep. go to sleep. go to sleep.

YAY ;DD
im sun baked and red hot. & so are joyce shermaine and qingwei!
shermaine especially.
i feel so hot and fuzzy all over. It isn't a very comfortable feeling & I bathed in hot water to make it worse. Heee ;D so much for acting smart.
mummy's oat body cream isn't helping. I need aloe vera! ;D
today's trip to east coast park was FUN FUN FUN. whooo.
We were ALMOST lost, thankfully, there were extremely helpful marine parade residents that directed us to the underpass and there was even an uber nice lady who popped her head out just to check that we were going the right way. awww (:
My attempt to learn to cycle part 2 was pretty screwed up again. heh. but Im getting there.
& there was a fighter jet in the sky today. Awww. We were trying to guess whether its an aeroplane, a rocket, or a fighter jet, apparently the last won!
& we went to sit at the jetty just soaking in the sun and the view.
the water sparkled (rather the one further out in the sea)
& the sand was oh so smooth and white.
haha it was a great time to STONE & day dream.
then washed up, headed back to marine parade (as quoted central; city area by shermaine)
kfc-ed and we didn't have a peaceful meal, we broke into peals of laughter throughout the meal, except for shermaine who turned on her silent mode ;D there was a bunch of jc students sitting behind us, and one of the girls, kept going,
' i was like blahhh blaahhh blahh '
& ' she was like blahh blahhh blahhh '
& then ' he was like blahhh blahh blahhh '
and 'how could she be like this blahhh blahhh blahh'
and ' i was like is it like my fault, do i look like.....blahh blahh blahh'
& on and on she went, and we laughed at every single like she says,
qingwei claims her vocabulary is apparently extremely limited.
our fingers and toes added up wouldn't have been enough to count the no.s of 'like' she said.
Hence we started imitating her with the ang moh qiang and all non-stop around the shopping mall and all. Window-shopped (Of course lah) and looked for joyce's ipanema. Oh! I love mine ;D
then we bus-ed back (: the ride was tiring. Fell asleep, thank goodness. and im still feeling hot all over.I'd hope tomorrow's ice skating had cool my skin :DD
pure fun, just days and days of playing WOOO! (: at least till school starts urgh.
& i wanna go FO camp the SU one its so annoying they didn't call back hmph
and oh theres cell retreat. ahahaahhaha! i can't wait! (:
& i seriously need to peel my eyes open. got work to do. gahhh!

even if it takes you forever

How do I love thee?
Let me count the ways.

I've been doing a lot of thinking recently.
Ok it doesn't mean I don't think everyday.
But anyway I've been thinking that there are a zillion of charity cases (exaggerating)
but really lots of charity cases, so what makes one unfortunate man different from the other,
what would make you donate to one and not the other.
what makes you think that the tissue aunty over at the traffic light needs more help than the one at the mrt. for example.
I think its really confusing. & I haven't seen tissue uncle for a long time, whichever his name, but my favourite tissue uncle friend, and my kong kong's one too. ok he used to sell the singapore sweep tickets. sigh. I wonder how he's doing.
& oh yes back to the topic.seee im diverting AGAIN.
& for example today, there was a blind lady basking, a old man without one arm selling tissues, I walked away an extremely confused person. Which to donate I think. Both? Or one a day.
How about the old ladies at Orchard Road where they set their mats and sell lil stuff ranging from tissues to umbrellas to a pack of milo or even bossini teeshirts. Seriously, are those considered charity cases. I don't know.
& now about charity now that I remember, my year plan to go help out at an old folks home. MUST NOT GET DISTRACTED. urgh!
I must go and get it done by God's grace.

& now about another topic about weight?
Is it so oppressive the word fat?
Why is there a stigma about the word fat?
As I was going up the escalator the group of secondary girls on the way down said,
' I like that thick hairband but I saw a fat girl wearing it'
Whats the link over here?
It disgusts me when people ostracise people who are not as slim as them, or not of the perfect figure. & to people who are already stick thin, they say that I need to lose weight, I need to eat less, its really crazy!

I'm too tired to think much more.
& I think I've been pretty grumpy of late which is bad.
Perhaps its moodswings?
I don't know. GAHH.

i miss you.

& its such a grey area.
not clearly stated in black and white.
but its there.
and i know it as much as you do.

TGIF!
In god there is no uncertainty, he is certain, he is real.
In god there is no need to worry that what is lost would be lost forever.
I would never lose him.
& since young. i've been afraid of losing things that are dear to me.
i mean who isn't, but im EXTRA paranoid of it.
but now, I'll never need to fear.
& to meet up with god this sanctification week again was great.
the passion of the christ video.
the reminder again that god did this for me.
thank god for speaking.
& change me father, i'll be ignorant no longer.

HAHA YAY ;DDDD
shopping with renette was LOVE (:
daughter! i love you. hahhahaha!
we went to taka to get her 3 quarts. auntie nancy and caixia! thank you ;DDD
i miss you guys sooooo much (: auntie nancy you're still as sweet as ever.
hahaha and i've got 40% discount :PPP i sound seriously aunty- OMIGOSH.
i'll come by and visit you when i can. hahaha! (:
anyway a very satisfied renette went off happily with her 3/4s.
and then we ice-creamed! its been ages!
CHOCO MINT is pre-loved, and still loved.
and i really ate A LOT. despite my cough, and throaty voice and whatever not. heh.
had gogo franks cheesy sausage prata, and sausage fries! :D
then we strolled to isetan, to look for clothes, didn't find anything, but spoke to auntie annie ;D she looks really adorable in her huge black jacket.but most of the aunties are gone ): then we had the random urge to watch step up 2, but then we decided to go bugis to watch. bought buns and fruits, then had you tiao and butterfly ;D and otah! that was really A LOT of food.

heh. and off to bugis, the movie timing was 5:10 bleargh, and renette probably couldn't make it for her hangul lessons if we watched it then. so we went up to the foodcourt and ate our food.
we were sitting by this lovely window, with a beautiful scenery, if you count buildings as scenery that is, but there was some sky still, so i had the clearer view and i wanted to let renette see some sky ;D and then i moved my chair, renette gave a questioning look, i moved the table next in a sudden swift motion, renette whose elbows were on the table, jerked off. her expression was hilarious! she nagged at me for not giving her a warning. haha! awww.

after the short break we continued shopping, and when we were thinking of heading back so that she could make it for her hangul lessons, the centre confirmed that it was on wednesday. GAHH we could have atched step up 2. but then again, there's always wed.
so we strolled around to look for smaller handbags. ;D renette wanted it and it was really hilarious, i don't know it just looks funny on her. heh!

since she had no more hangul lessons, we decided to go shoe-shopping. IM HAPPY ;DD new shoes! that means i can throw away one of my old pair. too tight. hehe! now i want sneakers.but for now my kappa shoes will have to do.

went back to the centre later, sorry aikhong! i came too late, heh. ;p then it was bliss (: just spending time talking, haha! and thank you. that was very sweet. home-ed. and i've got lessons later. till then.

sweet jesus.
i close my eyes lift my hands to worship you.
you're the love of my life.
no one else matters in this world but you.
no one can take your place in my heart.

father i miss you.

and its like daily, we're on a sugar high (:

Went to SP for enrolment today, was kinda awe-ed.
Just poof-ed back. So many clubs, how to know which to join. like ACK!
but I think I'd wanna attend the student union club camp.
still the timing's kinda wrong. have lessons on tues, and the camp falls from mon-wed
BAD ):
Anyway, I got my lappie. YAY ;DDD
haha and the freshman orientation tee, is kinda prettaye ;DDD

heh! then headed to Singapore's Christian Home for the Aged with the kids and the other tutors & helpers & boss! It was really sad to see the old folks, limited or rather confined to their beds, their so called, own cubicle, and theres not much to roam about with, no tv clearly visible.
There're elderly whose faces brightened up and they smiled like nobody's business when we sung, performed and spoke to them.

& There was this old lady, Aunt Elsie, who really touched me.
She couldn't see, her hearing wasn't good. Yet her passion for God was really there.
She sung hymns which I don't know of but still, I could feel her love for God.
If someone, without sight, who can't hear well, could trust God with all her heart, soul, and spirit, why can't I? It just hit me really hard.
Then a student's reflection, that underneath everything no matter how harsh or withdrawn they may be, there's a part of them yearning for love. Indeed every single one of us human being's like that, perhaps thats a good explanation when the kids behave like that or friends or other strangers or loved ones, when they get irritating, or make you angry, perhaps they just want your attention. A lil' I care for you. a lil' I'm here for you would go a mile.

& its really an eye-opener, going to the old folks home with kids, seriously, previously when going with classmates, it'd be, difference between enthu and unenthu people, people who do it just for the sake of doing it, not out of pure compassion, out of love, out of care and concern.

Well the kids really made me proud of them, they'd do stuff they don't normally do. Dance with zest, when this kind of thing would make them embarassed usually, or sing lustily, despite the fact some think they can't sing, despite the fact some zhao sia, they still sang. those who were rough and clumsy people, making an effort to fold hearts, putting their heart and soul into writing their comments, its really great to see them going all out. I realised giving isn't just giving within your means as often stated, but giving more than you can.

MAC-RITCHIE jungle walk tomorrow! I'm off heh! TOODLES (:

& the lil actions speak more than words itself.

Im losing my voice. ack!!!
and its manly. urp! im tired. & im going to sleep early for once ;D
haha. and thank you (: for coming down to pass me medication.
and i asked for a roll of robitussin sweet alone, and you gave the whole package, medicine needed, more than necessary and not needed.
as your dad said 'did someone at the centre faint?'
Thanks :) for asking your dad to drive down to considering you once said that its rare.
and for running to 7 eleven. haha! and for taking over tomorrow's lessons!
I want my voice back, its like so ack.
I realised how much our voice is a blessing from God.
& thanks Minghao for the disgusting tasting luohanguo and the waterchestnut.
heh! & the rest at the centre for telling me to takecare.
WHOA i can't wait to recover.
and lets go ICE CREAM tomorrow, in hope that it would soothe my throat! (:

& gratitude, these lil thoughtful things (:

sleeping is tiresome today.
breathing is troublesome.
i don't like chronic coughs. ACK!

and when you call , my heart stops beating.

Ice skating was screwed up ):
the ice skating rink was closed up cos there was an ice hockey tournament!
absolutely annoying!
we went there and we were like huh! how come theres no one are they zambo-ing the rink or were we early. and we saw the sign that says PLEASE BEWARE OF FLYING HOCKEY PUCKS!and then the hockey goalposts or nets? whichever you call that.
then finally the sign, that says PLEASE NOTE THAT WE'LL BE CLOSED FROM 6/3/2008-8/3/2008 due to the hockey tournament. LIKE BAHHH! We pouted frowned to no avail. We couldn't have used it for nuts la!
Watched a lil bit of ice hockey while munching before going for movie.
The eye was freaky! yet it was really meaningful as in the moral of the story.
& i realised there're so many people scared of spooky shows. Me included!
Girl with blonde curly hair and black mascara-ed plus eye-shadowed lady to the fullest extent was just freaky! & music plays such a part.
poor nigel got whacked hard by renette.
xueyi borrowed shermaine's shoulder.
jinwen im not too sure.
aik hong snatched my shawl away to cover his eyes.
and qingwei thought it was amusing! haha.
Then walked talked watched more ice hockey matches,
which was kinda bad cos singapore lost 3-1. awww!
but its really interesting and violent! haha
then headed back to the centre.
did some album. read with some kids.
and reminder to self: Go get a dictionary for derek.
then went to write motivational cards for huixian.
and pizza hutted with ftc people. which explanation doesn't suffice for my current hoarse voice.
ack! fever the next day at 38. can't stand it!
and imagine a few days ago, I was telling my mummy, 'Mummy its really funny how everytime I think to myself, I haven't had a sore throat for a long time, or I haven't fell sick for a long time and then I'll fall sick.'
Now I've fallen sick again! ): haha and I hid the news from my daddy and grandma.
Took panadol silently, suffer silently etc.
Today's my voice's still hoarse, and i go off-key and my throat itchy,
but thank God for the little things in life, I'm healed of the fever.
& for the honey lemon drink from sheree's mum,
& for Mummy agreeing to hide the secret.
& for the messages which cheered me up! (:

today was shopping with lovely renette (:
IT fair was WHOA! haha got the memory stick. thanks daddy for paying! ;P
& VAIO and apple labtops are love!
they're just so gorgeous at least lookwise. droolworthy.
renette's and my drool could have filled up a bucket! haha exaggeration ;D
whichever.
went shopping (: or rather renette did the shopping.
heh! too much clothes. & fashion lab has a sale going on!
like major. rene wanted a 3/4. staff purchase. heh! thanks caixia (:
plus additional 15% off.
met doris though she didn't recognise me.
the manager that told me to smile at clothes when shopping! ack.
and window-ed the rest.
got donut factory! YUM though its real messy.
I managed to resist the temptation to eat it till i broke fast. haha YAY.
went to HURS then. and strolled around bugis street.
shorts and jeans. oh no! im feeling tempted. haha
& renette was so evil. she said. 'elizabeth see la! I don't like you already, you tempt me to buy clothes. hurh hurh!'
;D amusing! then yoshinoya-ed for dinner.
before rushing for cell at sengkang.
chatted along the way. i think its been ages since renette and i had the time to hang out with each other.
THANK GOD (:
ice breakers was really hilarious.
haha renette said ' I FEEL SO STRESSED '
;DDD its really funny lah! haha.
then worship
and NDP motivator.
whoo ((; mummy said its ok if i join! haha renette im dragging you along with me heh.
and then learnt about deliverance.
it was interesting yet spooky.
home-ed with renette & rachel.
lovely time talking. haha! (;
YAY! and tomorrow's ice skating day! i can't wait!

& in circles we've gone.

HOO! minjun couldn't make it today and i was pretty touched heh not that he couldn't go!
but that his mum called to say that he wanted to struggle and make it to class (:
he's so sweet. awww! haha. its ok i'll see you sunday!
the little things that are extra sunshines!
:D
jack place-ed with qingwei and jinwen.
& HURRAY! i've finally finished packing all the books. HA!
i'd feel a major sense of accomplishment.left the borrow me sign to do though.
oh yes and photo album captions. soon soon (:
;DDD i need to learn my tenses all over. its getting bad!
& its amazing how easy primary school eng seemed! no lengthy essays and comprehension. whoa! aik hong homework seems pretty ok.
then home-ed (: thanks for a/c to mrt! ;D
cell tomorrow! yay! & IT fair with rene.
im soooo not looking forward to medical checkup
super gross la. what chest x-ray.
i feel violated ok! and urine test! ack! ack! ack!
SP AHHH!

& yesterday was........ but i'll still give thanks!
class was horigible.
im not sure if its the after examination mode or something
but still they refused to pay attention. maybe cos i gave them a test.
or maybe i wasn't sufficiently prepared. and the game went awry.
but what really hurt was sheree writing down on a piece of paper whilst crying.
' this is the most boring lesson ever. you're the worst tuitor.'
NOTE: with spelling error attached.
which reminds me i need to correct her spelling.
heart breaks twice & thrice.
its the worse thing anyone can say.
i know she likes to win, to have all the attention in the world especially from tutors.
she's probably the only child. but whatever its not like im not!
she's self centred like what christon says. but people have their faults lah.
but what really drives me crazy was the fact that after class and 2 games.....
she.... said..... BYE elizabeth JIE JIE! SEE YOU! & gave me a HI-5 & a HI - 0.
Its confusing. and before lesson she was. LAUGHING AWAY HAPPILY & PLAYING WITH ME.
and to add in inappropriate behaviour. she eats sweets like nobody's business! in my class without asking me. yes for whose ever brilliant idea it was, i'd get monster sweets and scare her with gooey coloured teeth! its really a great idea now! and she eats like nobody's business. in my class. and she's anti social, she doesn't like people in her class. must have pre talk with her next week. to think i thought her mature.
ARRGHHH! frustration. but i'll learn to rest in the Lord.
not mine but yours.
& yi heng is so cute LIKE XOXO SUPER LOVED. sheesh! i mean seriously. he's so sweet. he's smart, polite, cute, funny, and understanding. little monster sheree wanted to be the listener in queen victoria and yiheng wanted to be too, and sheree was close to starting a fight and then yiheng said, its ok, you be lah! MAN! I LOVE HIM ((: highest scorer 47.5/50
that doesn't mean i don't love you all minjun and jessica & sheree too!
I'LL LOVE YOU ALL ((: despite your faults! i've mine too.

& today was really a great day.
on a side note: i splurged on myself yesterday.
haha im happy! & i got my pay! (:
and the rest that happened im too lazy to blog bout it.
TILL THEN!
im looking forward to tomorrow ;DD