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11.30.2008 @ 2:33 AM
"The Love of heaven makes one heavenly"
-Shakespeare
I realised how much delicious food I've been eating this entire year,
if I were to list it all out in a list, i'd die typing it or maybe die from the amount of calories i gained from them. But oh well if I'm happy who cares if I'm fat.
胖也要胖得可爱!
I'm satisfied (:
Haha I think I'm much more happier with good food than pretty clothes.
(which was the essential debate between rene and I)
Anyway here are the pictures of the more recent food that rene and I have been pigging out.
I realised something, I keep pigging out on good food the most when I'm with rene,
yes there are the bits and pieces with christon, and the random friends, and saman,
but rene, it seems like you're my EATING AND SHOPPING BUDDY!!!
HURH HURH! a lot right in the last span of 1 month, and i think i missed out some, cos either i was too greedy and started eating immediately or it simply got lost among all the food photos! (:
and I think I realised what was wrong with my emo streak lately,
I think I WAS going through the I'm angry with everyone and the world phase.
I know. Like HAH HAH. Eli doing that?
Well, the noisiest people have things they keep inside sometimes.
(Lucien? It isn't always the quietest ones...)
I think I need to learn to forgive myself, yes I haven't forgiven myself
for screwing up my own expectations, the fact that I couldn't get into add diploma.
I mean sometimes I really ask God why?
Like my dreams or aspirations don't always turn out the way I want them to.
i.e I wanted to get into cedar sec, back in primary school, I didn't end up there.
i.e. I wanted to be some amazing topper of o level cohort or something (HAHA!)
and I didn't. My results were good enough, good enough, not amazing but good enough.
i.e. I wanted to go JC since goodness knows when and goodness why, but interest overtook what I dreamt of, and I ended up here in events something that I love ultimately.
i.e. I wanted to get add diploma, in poly if I got into poly and jc, back when I was sec 3.
See I'm not there again.
Am I being unrealistic? Or?
But somehow I thank God. That even though I never ended up in all those places I dreamt of,
I ended up somewhere, somewhere I'm happy at and God provides me with more than enough.
Or even better. Somehow his plans turn out excellently.
I think I got frustrated with being at FLC! lately because I feel like it has sucked up all my time,
I've got no time for me, myself, and what I want to do or enjoy to do, I'm happy there, but just as to quote " too much of a good thing can be a bad thing " and I guess its my personal choice, of how much effort to put in, and I choosed it, so serve you right, Eli.
Anyway, MSTs are here.
Goodluck people! (:
Then...after that, I can shop for CHRISTMAS. HOOORAHHHH!!!! ;DDD
hahahaha i love giving, and oh yea setting up christmas tree.
I bought new lightings and decorations for the christmas tree. *CLAPS*
then I'm off to Cambodia.
then I'm off to Cambodia.
One of my dreams! God thank you for realising this one. (:
I'm so glad I got to talk to saman today!
(: She says things I don't like to hear.
But yeah She's one damn awesome bbf!
11.25.2008 @ 11:19 AM
IM GLEEFUL! (:
laughs
Twilight's gonna be onscreen soon. YAY! ;D
and I'm gonna see robert pattinson on screen. (RENE! i'll wait for you to watch together)
I like high cheekbones! ;D although its technically impossible to find them in asian faces.
But I don't like the fact he goes unshaven, its not all that sexy, like as if he just woke up in the morning and had a hangover.
But enough of him anyway.
I'm off to mug for msts.
the horror!
11.23.2008 @ 2:54 AM
and when the crunch comes.
what would you do?
This time, I feel like giving up, letting go.
Just washing my hands off everything I'm doing. (except studies & church)
I want to live my teenage life.
I feel as if I'm wasting it away, being someone I'm not.
Someone mature, someone who leads, I'm not sure if I'm ready.
Its different.
11.20.2008 @ 1:09 AM
The real ones who love you tell you things you need to hear, even though they know you won't like to hear it.
11.16.2008 @ 11:18 AM
Love sought is good, but giv'n unsought is better
when the world gets too loud, too suffocating, too tiring.
i'll retreat into god's peace.
His grace is sufficient.
(I sound like im trying to convince myself .)
11.04.2008 @ 12:00 PM
Oh my blog's FINALLY refreshed.
& its no longer stale.
Life's been hectic.
& I seriously need to resume blogging again.
It helps me process my train of thoughts.
& its quite amazing how yesterday,
seemingly for no particular reason,
I thought of Cheong Hui Shan, indeed people come and go,
this memory seems particularly clear to me;
we met up to do an art project,drinking HL milk along the way,
Life was so blissfully simple then, we ran around under the sun, plucked yellow flowers from the garden, imagine us severing the flowers from their roots, re-planting them into the soil in clumps, into our very own garden. Needless to say, the flowers perished.
Just like the short-lived term of that friendship.
Oh Yea. We even plucked out some flowers for our respective mummy, and i remembered heading home, retrieving the flowers from my pocket and realising that they've turned brown.
Silly me.
Speaking of mummy,
I think sometimes mummy's just so cute.
We traded off last night, that I would play facebook's word challenge for her,
if she makes me food to eat ;D YAY!
& lots of outings with rene,
and things to update on (: