i feel like stabbing myself!
i feel like stabbing myself more!
WAILS ): WHY DID I MISS THE OUTING WITH BEST FRIENDS! ):
AHHH!
now im not gonna see them again till august.
ARGHHHHHH.........
GRUMBLES!

I think its a terrible awful screwed up feeling.
Poly is aedhdiuenjkfnrfj!h!
One term has passed and I still don't have that 'home' feeling.
The school is so awfully big, you don't always meet people you know,
its an alien feeling!
I feel like im strolling about in a huge huge huge shopping centre you know!
EXCEPT its not as fun.
and i really really think that my classmates are great,
BUT i don't have someone i would call an absolute bestie,
i mean someone that i hang out, grumble, complain, go crazy, do stupid stuff etc.
Okay I know its only been 1 month plus so I gotta just cut people some slack.
it makes me miss the church mates lots
the sec school mates lot.
saman, ballo, simin, and all the lovely mates that im too lazy to type out right now.
I should have just gone to JC and stressed myself there, i'd probably be complaining if I were there right now, but I'd be very well occupied, and loving it.
Anyway, if this is where God put me in, Im sticking through it.
& I think I've been giving myself too much pressure to perform.
I want to do well, but then I need to be realistic.
Anyway I'll just trust god then! surrender it all.

THANK GOD for the people in my life that actually gives me reasons to smile (:
Thank god for the lil things in life.
that im able to have the people i love by my side.

& YOU KNOW WHAT! I'm gonna get to celebrate Saman's birthday in SINGAPORE for the first time in don't know say 2 years or so? YAY YAY YAY ;DDD HOORAH! HOORAH!

& I need to be more efficient and productive in my work! gwahhahaha! gwahahah!

i feel like stabbing myself!
i feel like stabbing myself more!
WAILS ): WHY DID I MISS THE OUTING WITH BEST FRIENDS! ):
AHHH!
now im not gonna see them again till august.
ARGHHHHHH.........
GRUMBLES!

I think its a terrible awful screwed up feeling.
Poly is aedhdiuenjkfnrfj!h!
One term has passed and I still don't have that 'home' feeling.
The school is so awfully big, you don't always meet people you know,
its an alien feeling!
I feel like im strolling about in a huge huge huge shopping centre you know!
EXCEPT its not as fun.
and i really really think that my classmates are great,
BUT i don't have someone i would call an absolute bestie,
i mean someone that i hang out, grumble, complain, go crazy, do stupid stuff etc.
Okay I know its only been 1 month plus so I gotta just cut people some slack.
it makes me miss the church mates lots
the sec school mates lot.
saman, ballo, simin, and all the lovely mates that im too lazy to type out right now.
I should have just gone to JC and stressed myself there, i'd probably be complaining if I were there right now, but I'd be very well occupied, and loving it.
Anyway, if this is where God put me in, Im sticking through it.
& I think I've been giving myself too much pressure to perform.
I want to do well, but then I need to be realistic.
Anyway I'll just trust god then! surrender it all.

THANK GOD for the people in my life that actually gives me reasons to smile (:
Thank god for the lil things in life.
that im able to have the people i love by my side.

& YOU KNOW WHAT! I'm gonna get to celebrate Saman's birthday in SINGAPORE for the first time in don't know say 2 years or so? YAY YAY YAY ;DDD HOORAH! HOORAH!

& I need to be more efficient and productive in my work! gwahhahaha! gwahahah!