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6.29.2008 @ 2:34 AM

I don't like being sick.
Its a very sickening feeling.
However, thank god, I have rested sufficiently.

My mum's accompanying me late nights.
Simply because, she uses facebook much more than neopets now!
&; you only get to play a game thrice on neopets. haha

I love my course.
The world city summit is over. (:
and it was enlightening.
I like the rush, the thrill, the excitement, of seeing the whole thing functioning.
People walking past, making things HAPPEN!
Its just so cool.
I love it when my mind runs like a clock, when it goes tick tick brrr!
I like it when i sit still and complete my work efficiently.
I love discovering new things, new ways to manage things, new revelations.

I have a lot of random thoughts.
Some nasty, some deeply philosophical thoughts to pen.
However, note its to PEN.
yes on a paper.
thats where pen and paper goes best together.
*mumbles*

6.18.2008 @ 12:56 AM

i feel like stabbing myself!
i feel like stabbing myself more!
WAILS ): WHY DID I MISS THE OUTING WITH BEST FRIENDS! ):
AHHH!
now im not gonna see them again till august.
ARGHHHHHH.........
GRUMBLES!

I think its a terrible awful screwed up feeling.
Poly is aedhdiuenjkfnrfj!h!
One term has passed and I still don't have that 'home' feeling.
The school is so awfully big, you don't always meet people you know,
its an alien feeling!
I feel like im strolling about in a huge huge huge shopping centre you know!
EXCEPT its not as fun.
and i really really think that my classmates are great,
BUT i don't have someone i would call an absolute bestie,
i mean someone that i hang out, grumble, complain, go crazy, do stupid stuff etc.
Okay I know its only been 1 month plus so I gotta just cut people some slack.
it makes me miss the church mates lots
the sec school mates lot.
saman, ballo, simin, and all the lovely mates that im too lazy to type out right now.
I should have just gone to JC and stressed myself there, i'd probably be complaining if I were there right now, but I'd be very well occupied, and loving it.
Anyway, if this is where God put me in, Im sticking through it.
& I think I've been giving myself too much pressure to perform.
I want to do well, but then I need to be realistic.
Anyway I'll just trust god then! surrender it all.

THANK GOD for the people in my life that actually gives me reasons to smile (:
Thank god for the lil things in life.
that im able to have the people i love by my side.

& YOU KNOW WHAT! I'm gonna get to celebrate Saman's birthday in SINGAPORE for the first time in don't know say 2 years or so? YAY YAY YAY ;DDD HOORAH! HOORAH!

& I need to be more efficient and productive in my work! gwahhahaha! gwahahah!

6.17.2008 @ 7:36 PM

1. At what age do you intend to get married?
lets see, i'd complete poly when im 20.
i intend to go uni so its gonna be another 3->4 years, that'd be 23/24
and approx 2 years to get established in one's job & 1 year to stabilise our plans with each other.
so it'll be 26/27/28?

2. Study hard or play hard?
both! more to study hard and work hard (:
I LOVEEE being BUSY! i know thats nuts ;D

3. Who is the person/s you trust most?
God, daddy, mummy, samantha, renette, michelle chen, jolyn, candy, christon.

4. Why do you think you have not enough confidence?
I need some time to warm up to someone, to actually bond well with someone, so i guess thats from the part of not having enough confidence to go forward and do something random like 'HELLO!'

5. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
for everyone to be saved, then we would live happily every after, or so it seems.

6. What is your idea of a friend?
Someone who's there when you are in need, someone you can trust, share lil things with, and laugh one's eyeballs out with each other. (:

7. What is you goal this year?
WHOOOHOOO! TO SCORE A GOAL! haha. im being moronic. but moronic does it! YAY! (:
im not typing cos i have too many to list.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
YEAH! i guess. Look at those husbands and wives out there!

9. If you have all the time and money in the world, what would you do?
Make this world happier, livelier, cheery.
Live life to the fullest!

10. If time were to unwind, what would you change?
Nothing. This plan for my life so far has been pretty awesome (:
Why change it? Even if bad stuff happened then, I learnt and grew stronger cos of it!

11. If the person you love were about to die, would you stay by his/her side or lead a happy single life?
needless to say, stay by his/her side, hello! that is obviously the right choice!

12. What feelings do you hate most?
JEALOUSY! i loathe this feeling utterly. Its a dumb dumb feeling! It springs up from nowhere and disturb your thoughts and emotions! GLARES. SHOO JEALOUSY!

13. Do you cherish all your friendship?
DUH UH!

14. Do you believe in love at first sight?
NOOOOO.....at least its not love, probably attraction! (:
Love takes time to grow, and nurture!

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
God, family, studies, work, friends, boyfriend (in random order)

16. Who do you hope to be always behind you, supporting you?
PEOPLE i love, and who matter very much to me. OF COS!

17. People who are going to be hated by you?
ummmm. hmmm. i can't stand bimbos or wannabes,
but then again i'll try! (:

18. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.
Jolyn! (AWESOME BALLO! THE SISTER)
Jen! (FA HUA CHI!)

19. How many percent do you think you are infront of your friends?
Uh? don't get it? but im naturally me!
Without the lies, the masks, and YAWW!

20. Do you think long-distanced relationship would work out?
If both parties make the effort, why not. haha! LOVE CONQUERS ALL

6.16.2008 @ 6:53 AM

Its a beautiful day....
& I love seeing the sunrise when I wake up.
I like the fresh air in the morning.

I am hungry.
I like mango pudding!
I want to eat cheesecake.
Thats the randomness of my incoherent thoughts.

6.13.2008 @ 2:23 AM

i think its odd.
how girlfriends want boyfriends to take care of them.
i can take care of myself perfectly fine. thank you very much.
i just need a lil concern, a lil time spent, lil conversations,
& im satisfied.

i've been thinking
how much i miss daddy,
my physical daddy.
i hardly see my daddy anymore.
i don't even squabble with him about the silliest thing.
he's sleeping when im home, im sleeping when he's home.

and lord father,
i miss you even more.
draw me close to you,
never let me go.
father, im sorry.
im sick of my life revolving around the world,
centre, and centre is where you'll be.
you're all i want, and all i'll ever need.
thank you father, you never fail to bless.

& i want to go volunteer at a home at least help the unfortunate (:
i think i'll do it after ndp when my saturdays are free-er.
whoo whoo.
& i wanna drag christon to join me (:
rene wanna come? ;DD

& of i wander; deep in thought

6.11.2008 @ 10:26 AM

i wanna meet the gang.
AWWWW AWWWWW ):

anyway MAGIX BOX is from 12-20 JULY.
COME & BE AWED!
Have you gotten your tickets yet?

1) do you wish to do this test?
NO! like MAJOR NO! i can spend this time watching my fingernails grow or doing something much more constructive. like disturbing people! haha!

2) who is more important to you? friends or boyfriend?
ummm hmmm. I'd say they are on par ;D heee.

3) who is the person i trust most?
my daddy & mummy (:

4) do you think you have enough confidence?
YEAH! im probably the most thick skin person in the entire world, but i definitely lose to michelle chen shi yun! right ;D

5) do you like jay chou?
he's OKAY. talented, yet his murmuring doesn't always make sense D:

6) do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
YEAH YEAH YEAH!!! (:

7) what is your goal ?
I wanna live my life to the fullest ;D
& travel round the world before its too late.

8) do you believe in eternity love?
question mark? the english sounds very wrong lah!
hahhaa. i guess (*points to the husbands and wives out there.*)

9) have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
I don't know. I don't think so. D;

10) what feeling you love most?
EATING GOOD FOOD is BLISS (:

11) what are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
kind, humble, honest, intelligent, understanding,
knows how to play a musical instrument, posseses some sense of humour.
basically whatever qualities you would want too.

12) list out 5 best friends of yours? (no rank)
Samantha ding, the BWSS gang, Michelle Chen, Jolyn Lai, Huixin.

13) are you lame?
If you are speaking in terms of legs, i can walk perfectly fine. thank you (:
but if you mean in terms of humour, heee. DEFINITELY ;D

14) what do you think is the most important thing in my life?
God. Family. Studies. Friends. Tuition kids. Boyfriend.

15) do you love anime?
No. I do not love anime, that is the most unapt description.

16) would you rather be loved or be in love?
BOTH (: it comes hand in hand

17) what have you done to please yourself?
EAT!!!!

18) if time were to rewind, when will you want it to be?
i wanna be a baby -> toddler, and make sure my parents take pictures of me again,
cos they lost majority of the photos in their camera when they were on holiday ): hahaha.

19) name nicknames that were given to you.
eli,eliz,lizzie,liz,bird, eliz the bird,
you get the idea, it revolves around bird.

20) what you want the most now?
To complete this quiz! ahhhh...IM DONE ;D

michelle, hows it for you?
im not gonna tag it or force people to do it. (HUH! GLARES.)

6.10.2008 @ 4:16 AM

& i've been blog hopping.
yes now! at this unearthly time.
& i've been looking through the juniors blog.
& i think its so amusing!
some worry about stuff like.
' boy a dumped me. etc.
im with boy b now. man! i love boy b.
and so the story continues on and on '

i really MISS secondary school.
& i miss going crazy in school.
i miss the mugging periods in school.
i miss my entre committee people.
i miss rehearsals for whichever performances there are.
i miss slacking in class.
i miss my classmates
i miss 4e3'07
im feeling so nostalgic!
Now I even remember my sec 1 english teacher who corrected my usage of the word 'nostalgic'
I miss BWSS even more.

& speaking of BWSS.
i've done my share of shopping at GSS!
yeah yeah!
spent two separate days with renette shopping!
HAHHA it was awesome-est (:
i think we do the nuttiest things ever.
she enjoys ogling, fascinating, drooling at manly and cute guys period!
i.e. walking past california fitness and squealing!
eh got macho guys there exercising!
i do stupid stuff which im obviously not proud of.
but the most hilarious of which is the neoprint machine thingy!
having not taken one for like ages! we went and took one at cine.
wanting to save moolahs to shop and eat good food.
we decided to save and spend it on a 6 dollars cheapo neoprint machine.
hahhaa! i was carrying lots of bags (COS ITS THE GSS!)and the 6 dollar coins in my hand.
not being octopus nor spideyman i couldn't manage and drop the coins.
being very indignant and guilty about dropping 2 dollars,
we decided to rescue the coins. and spent approx 5 mins, unglamly squatting down, kneeling down trying to find the coins under the machine.
In an attempt to drag the wires around, to reach the coins,
we tripped the switch of the machine. HA!
being honest and possessing much integrity, we told the assistant.
and she gave us a - you just disturbed me in the midst of doing nothing - face.
haha! and anyway it turned out fine,
we giggled our way out.
and continued shopping.
MAN! i just love love love time spent with renette.
its never boring when too crazy people come together. POWER UP! ha!

anyway i was just back on sunday from star camp.
WHOO!
god is good (:
so good (:

and ndp this week was at bedok camp.
goodness knows what we were there for.
jinwen and huixin said there were plenty of eye candies.
goodness knows, i was sleeping on the bus!
and im gonna practise my magic tricks! ;D
till i perfect it whoo! (:

im looking forward to the rest of the week! YEA! ;D

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAIFENG ;D

P.P.S HAPPY BIRTHDAY WONGCHEEKUAN! ;D

P.P.P.S something tells me JEN's birthday's approaching cos i remember that i went shopping with CHEEKUAN for her present last year! when is it again?

P.P.P.P.S i remember JOL'S birthday too, its in july cos joly and july seems to go together. BALLO, BOOBO MISSES YOU!

P.P.P.P.S SAMANTHA! DROP ME A MAIL IF YOU SEE THIS. YOU ALRIGHT? LOVE YOU LOTS! (:

6.03.2008 @ 3:13 AM

gahhahahah!
i thank god for all the lil things in life!
its gonna be a busy busy busy holiday, but yeah!
its really going to turn out alright
theres, tuition, extra lessons, family time, catching up with the bffs,
ndp-magic skill; gosh! i need to practise!, activities, camps, projects, assignments,
studying, coaching michelle, going back to gy time, and catching up with e juniors!
but thank god; im busy better than having nothing to do i guess.

today was spent nuahh-ing at home, which is awesome!
i slept for 18 hours! ahahaha. thats a lot of lost sleep caught up on (:
i need to see improvement in my class!
they're stagnant, i've gone through tenses zillion-ish times with them, and they forgot. everything goes *kaput* anyway on the bright side, they understand it (: and i see their brains clicking!

saturday was just G-R-E-A-T ;D
i love love love time spent with rene shopping!
hahah cos it means we eat, relax, and shop!
GSS! ; haha i remember mich was telling me gss has begun! i went huh! what's gss!
and then i tried to think of some acronym for it like giordano sticky sticky = GSS! i think GSS isn't exactly a nice name to call it. hahaha. ok anyway i side tracked.
ahhh retail therapy is so so so so good (:
we shopped from 2 plus to 9 plus 10.
good food good lunch, at the burmese inle restaurant
then walked around cityhall,
headed down to orchard, bought looads of stuff,
and we cut our hair!
hahaha and i re-pierced my ears,man! i think i must have gripped on to rene's hands like the world was going to end at that point of time. haha thanks rene (:
i swear we didn't feel a single bit tired. hahahaha!
then headed to food republic, for the usual prawn mee.
yeah!!! 2nd round on thursday!!! ;D

im looking forward to the rest of this week.
YEAH! ;D

6.01.2008 @ 12:33 AM

& whoo!!!!
its the holidays (: its the holidays (: its the holidays!
ahahahahaha. i think school and all's killing me.
i need a break!
have a break! have a kit kat! ;D
ok im not in the perfect state of mind to function nor exist,
so i'll update another time!